Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Love, why can't I turn it off when I need to? Or at least turn down the knob on a huge switch board so I can't feel certain aspects of it?
I'm no expert about relationships...but I ended up falling head over heels the very first one I was in. She is soooooo beautiful that till this day I still can't believe it...I love her so much. Sadly as my love for her grew hotter, hers transformed into that of a friendship. It hurts.
We all have experienced someone we love so much that we give our life for. Someone we love so much that we do anything for them, but what if that one thing was to let them go so they can love someone else more than you? My chest wants to cave in.
I've been sitting here with this pain that never seems to end, but they say time heals all. I wish I could've given my life...at least I know then that kind of pain would've ended faster, and I wouldn't be sitting here waiting for that "time heals all" day to arrive. Gosh where is that day? I wish I could just Fedex overnight it. I'd pay 8 times the shipping cost for that.
They should invent a "feelings-blocker" so I can get rid of all these "missing-the-ex-you-still-love" pop-ups. These pop-ups are so damaging I feel that my whole system wants to shut down. Or at least I wish I could do a "man-restore" on myself (system restore for you computer minded people) so I can set my feelings for her back to the way they were before I installed my "Cause I love you more than anything in the world...love your baby boy" program for her.
People say open up my eyes, there are plenty of great "man-restore" programs out there. Which is true, and it's not that there a lack of any free trials that's been offered to me, but I'm a one disk floppy drive. (now that I'm proof reading this...calling myself a "floppy" drive was a pretty bad choice of words.) That and all of the new and supposedly better "man-restore" programs are usually CD based, not at all compatible with this piece of hardware. Sadly, I currently don't even have a port for plug and play to even upgrade myself. I can't wait for that day where that right diskette (with the correct serial key) to come along.
She's getting married on Sept 30th. I miss you babe and don't worry about me. I can honestly say this from the bottom of my heart, I wish you two nothing but the best.
I'm no expert about relationships...but I ended up falling head over heels the very first one I was in. She is soooooo beautiful that till this day I still can't believe it...I love her so much. Sadly as my love for her grew hotter, hers transformed into that of a friendship. It hurts.
We all have experienced someone we love so much that we give our life for. Someone we love so much that we do anything for them, but what if that one thing was to let them go so they can love someone else more than you? My chest wants to cave in.
I've been sitting here with this pain that never seems to end, but they say time heals all. I wish I could've given my life...at least I know then that kind of pain would've ended faster, and I wouldn't be sitting here waiting for that "time heals all" day to arrive. Gosh where is that day? I wish I could just Fedex overnight it. I'd pay 8 times the shipping cost for that.
They should invent a "feelings-blocker" so I can get rid of all these "missing-the-ex-you-still-love" pop-ups. These pop-ups are so damaging I feel that my whole system wants to shut down. Or at least I wish I could do a "man-restore" on myself (system restore for you computer minded people) so I can set my feelings for her back to the way they were before I installed my "Cause I love you more than anything in the world...love your baby boy" program for her.
People say open up my eyes, there are plenty of great "man-restore" programs out there. Which is true, and it's not that there a lack of any free trials that's been offered to me, but I'm a one disk floppy drive. (now that I'm proof reading this...calling myself a "floppy" drive was a pretty bad choice of words.) That and all of the new and supposedly better "man-restore" programs are usually CD based, not at all compatible with this piece of hardware. Sadly, I currently don't even have a port for plug and play to even upgrade myself. I can't wait for that day where that right diskette (with the correct serial key) to come along.
She's getting married on Sept 30th. I miss you babe and don't worry about me. I can honestly say this from the bottom of my heart, I wish you two nothing but the best.
